looking for something to do after school

I have been trying to look for a research scholarship for myself. In using the internet, it goes like this...

1) you'll find so many offers for scholarships
BUT! not on the fields you'd want to study on! (mine is moral and/or political philosophy or social and/or cultural psychology if anyone's interested in giving me the opportunity, PLEASE DO TELL ME!!!!)

2) you'll find your interest eventually
BUT! your nationality or alma mater prevents you to!

*just a comment, what's the point of applying for a post-graduate masters program if you already have a masters degree wherein you got an A- as your average? UGH! I don't get why that prerequisite was even created.

3) you'll finally be able to find the right one!
BUT! it's either already closed or you're not good enough for it!


http://benhaith.deviantart.com/art/Scholar-of-Destruction-100795016

Maybe I just simply need to try harder and to the career counselor I shall go!

The future is always gives such an anxiety that a person faces every time one would choose to be conscious of it. Questions of determinism always abound! What am I meant to do? What is it really I'm really good at? Am I really capable of doing what I want to do? Do I have the resources to pursuit these plans?

One scholarship offer caught my attention and its offer for study of moral and political philosophy had already a determined focus: hard determinism.

It was very very very ironic.


http://blackmage9.deviantart.com/art/Irony-125899141

Determinism which is the idea or notion that one's life is already laid out before him/her regardless of his/her efforts at controlling his/her destiny. Life is then just a matter of revelation and free will are but tracks in the greater railroad of one's one-tracked life. This makes moral-ethical considerations peripheral concerns of the human race and the essential question of meaning is pointed at discerning and eventually accepting one's telos as it inevitably unfolds.

The adjective "hard" when juxtaposed with the word determinism signals a notion of the incompatibility of determinism to reality. To stay at positive articulation: one is free to choose his/her own course in life and moral-ethical considerations are at the core of the human quest. Telos here is dependent on human free willing and the question of meaning is made essential.

To be accepted in that scholarship means that one is predetermined to study hard determinism...

Let's see how that goes!